July 11, 2012 by CassieCravings
There are days when you find an entire box of cereal poured into the cat’s water bowl.
There are days in the office when the printer jams, the computer freezes, and a bug runs across your office floor.
There are days when your child runs through the department store yelling about potty chairs and tee-tee, and you think, “I will never give a cross eye to another mother again in the history of the entire ever.”
There are days when Mommy needs time out too.
It’s funny how some days moms can feel that we can have it all. We can conquer this world, with a baby on our hip and a gorgeous shoe on our well manicured feet. And then there are days when we wonder if we brushed our teeth, or if we had the toothbrush in our hand and dropped it to put out whatever fire needed extinguishing.
I used to feel like such a failure on those teeth questioning days…”Used to” to are strong words. I still feel that way sometimes, and those are the moments that I have to check what I actually crave for my family. Those are the moments when I need timeout.
Timeout can be a few deep breaths or it can be a piece of dark chocolate hidden away for such occasions. It can be a few stolen moments away with that book that I am dying to finish. Sometimes I simply need a moment. Sometimes I need a few moments closed up in the bathroom with some tears and a good prayer.
For my son, timeout is about reevaluating. It’s the same for myself. I remind myself how fleeting the moment will be. I remind myself how lasting my reactions to the moment will be. I ask myself what do I crave for my son and myself to get out of this moment.
I remind myself that I am not perfect, nor can I be. No matter the color-coded lists, master schedules, no matter the intentions or the books I’ve read about parenting, perfect isn’t an option.
I am a mom, but I’m still human. I run on caffeine and love. And every now and then I need timeout.