A Night-Time Dance


December 3, 2012 by CassieCravings

I am so guilty of it. My mind is counting the hours left in the day and the items left to check off. Too often I spend most of Eli’s bedtime routine rushing while trying to get him still. My mind races as I coax his mind to relax.

Tonight I slowed down.



I scooped up my wriggling, chatting, energetic toddler and cradled him softly. We waltzed about the room as I swayed and hummed. Gradually his breath slowed to the rhythm of our quiet dance. His hair smelled of lavender. I buried my nose into his soft curls. They wisped about my face.

Dimpled fingers rested gently on my neck. He tucked his thumb into his fist. I smiled. I do the same when I sleep. So does my mother. I kissed each finger. Sleepily his mouth turned up to return the smile. His eyes were heavy, but they fluttered as they fought to stay open.

Lazily he murmured about astronauts and outer space, tight ropes and acrobats, and “trash men” driving loud trucks. We continued our dance, slowly, rhythmically. I whispered my prayers into his ears. Gradually his babbling slowed and then stopped, and his head rested heavily on my chest.

My arms ached. My back was sore. And I wondered if I could share in our sleepy dance by this time next year. It saddened me to think that my baby boy might be too big to rock, yet the thought strengthened my arms to hold him for as long as I physically could.

I shifted my snoozing boy so that I could watch his peaceful face. Long lashes rested on his cheeks. His mouth pursed in a quiet snore. His brow furrowed as he wiggled to a comfortable spot nestled in my arms.

As I watched my baby rest, I chided myself for being so quick to rush through his bedtime routine.  How many times have I lamented on how quickly he is growing? Yet how many times have I been frustrated that he wouldn’t fall asleep fast enough? I am not fully drinking in every moment.

I knelt by his bed, and he softly rolled from my arms onto his blankets. Quietly I promised to be fully aware and wholly present during every moment. Whether that moment is joyful, frustrating or simply routine, it is ours to celebrate.



12 thoughts on “A Night-Time Dance

  1. Carolyn Williams says:

    Member, I did his night time dance Friday night. It was very precious and I wondered the same thing about how long I could do that. My arms and back were really getting tired, but it was so precious.


    • mamacravings says:

      It’s definitely a work out, but I can’t help but think it won’t be much longer and our little chunker will be too heavy. Then we’ll have to stick to the rocking chair. 🙂

  2. cherylhuffer says:

    I know this feeling all too well. Now my youngest is almost eight and I kick myself for so often not mentally being in the room!

    • mamacravings says:

      It goes by so quickly! Every time an older parent says something to Eli, they always follow up with “It will fly by…” But then I will turn around and barely be present at dinner or at bath time. It’s easy to use all of the excuses in the world, and frankly most of them are pretty good. BUT when he’s grown, he’s grown.

  3. This is beautiful. Again.

  4. Emily Cook says:

    Love this.
    I had a moment like this today, when I had lunch in the sun with my littles. I usually throw food at them and keep running around, doing what needs to be done, but how often is it 60 in december here? And how long will they be little? For once, I could see it and I soaked it up.. and I lingered.

    Those moments are grace.
    So glad you were given one too 🙂

  5. Sarah says:

    Thank you! This is definitely what I needed to hear right now. Yesterday was rough. 😦 Love you!

  6. ambercease says:

    Enjoy it! ♡ My little man doesn’t let me hold him anymore… Sad, but true, he has outgrown the snuggle phase 😦

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