February 22, 2013 by mamacravings
The thing about being human is that even when you can add up all of the blessings and explain it plainly to your heart, your heart can still hurt.
The thing about being human is that no matter how many blessings you have, you can still lack.
The thing about being human is that there is a guilt that comes with sadness. There is a want to rationalize with yourself. But no matter the mental list of life’s pros and cons, you are still limited to being human with a human heart and human emotions.
About eight months ago, I had a miscarriage. I was supposed to hold a baby in my arms this month. I am not. I was supposed to be gushing over tiny onesies and little socks. I am not. I was supposed to be counting ten little fingers and ten little toes. I am not.
While everyone may say all of the words that are true: You will have another baby one day….It was probably for the best….and the other words that are said to comfort, the fact remains that my heart still hurts.
The thing about being human is that sometimes you just have to be human.
Sometimes you just have to slow down. Sometimes you just have to mourn what isn’t, what is lost, what is the could have been.
The thing about being human is that sometimes it sucks…poignant, no. True, yes. But the thing about being human is even with sorrow and pain, there is hope.
And with hope, there is possibility.