To Whom it May Concern: Resigning due to Medical Reasons

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August 7, 2017 by CassieCravings

I resigned from my job.

It wasn’t because I was ready to move on or even because I wanted to do so. I resigned from my job because of my health.

7 months have passed since my stroke. I am still not healthy enough or strong enough to return to my position as an elementary literacy coach. I was a teacher of teachers. I was a lover of literature. I was the keeper of the campus’ curricula. I was a lot of things before 29 December 2016.  These differences between “was” and “am” have never been more glaringly obvious than the day that the neurologist told me I wasn’t ready to go back to work.

“These differences between “was” and “am” have never been more glaringly obvious than the day that the neurologist told me I wasn’t ready to go back to work.”

The Disappointment

The school year is about to begin, and it will begin without me. While there are other projects in the works,  I will refrain from talking about them just yet. My usual defense to disappointment is avoidance. So, I will avoid avoiding.

Today I won’t deflect or even try to pull myself up by the bootstraps. I will take the time to pout, to be bummed and even to mourn the loss of my position at a school. I will acknowledge that it is disappointing to walk away from what I love and from the people with whom I love to work. This isn’t a forever deal, but it is a life-changing deal. My title will be different. My day-to-day will be different. Small talk will be different.

“This isn’t a forever deal, but it is a life-changing deal.”

Even more than the “different” is the understanding of how far away I am from being fully recovered. The reality of it stings. Expectations have not been met. They were unrealistic expectations of my recovery and of myself, but I am not one who is accustomed to falling short. I am one, however, is who is full to the brim of grit. I’m stubborn as hell and expect that determination to serve me well through the rest of recovery.

Stroke Survivor-warrior

The Gratitude

The flip side of not working outside the home is focusing full-time inside the home. I get to be home with my kids. Y’all. Just in case you missed it. Let’s review: I get to be home with my kids!

Even though this came to our family as a medical necessity, I am so grateful for the opportunity to be home with my children. So much time was lost with them during hospital stays and those first several months of recovery. Those are moments I will never get back, and being at home will be moments that I get to cherish.

In between packing lunches, carpools, diaper changes and peek-a-boo, there will be writing and there will be building a business of my own.

And that’s just the beginning. Good things are coming, friends. Now is the time I get to pour myself into new adventures.

Graphic - Adventure is mine for the taking

The Nutshell

I am sad to walk away.

I am grateful for the time added to my family.

I am excited for what’s to come.

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7 thoughts on “To Whom it May Concern: Resigning due to Medical Reasons

  1. NickyB. says:

    Love your outlook on everything.

  2. Keep recovering!! You will be stronger when surrounded by those who you love and who love you…

  3. Dewy says:

    Great outlook. Everything will fall it its place .
    I walked away from a job I loved last year. It’s now been nearly a year. As time goes by I don’t miss it as much. I’ve found stuff to keep me occupied and going back to study come next school year .

  4. Jennifer Butler Basile says:

    The ‘was’ and ‘am’ always get me – even without medical reasons. I wish you peace reconciling yours – and the ability to use that grit to the best of yours!

  5. There are Blessings in losses. I don’t even like to call them losses. I’m praying for you sis. You are so Blessed!!!!!! God is so Great! I’m excited to hear about your journey outside of school work…❤❤❤❤

  6. mayarica says:

    It helps to have a loving, supportive partner. God bless. x

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